Difficult

Challenge: Something difficult about your "lot in life" and how you're working on overcoming it.

This is a hard one. And I think that's the point.

I feel like I'm a pretty open person, but some things I keep close to myself. I feel pretty fortunate. I have two beautiful miracle babies, a husband whose love I have never doubted for a second, a supportive family, a roof over my head and food in my belly. 

But, if you think for one second that my life is perfect, you are wrong. I think it's so easy to show the good moments in your life to others. I think I probably do that. And, it's easy to do because truly, I have many many wonderful moments daily.

I also have worries. Plen-ty of them. I worry about my babies' development. I worry that I'm not doing enough. I worry when my husband worries. I have close family members who are going through some really hard things. Hard. So hard that I wish I would take even a sliver of their pain onto myself so they wouldn't hurt.

How do I overcome these things?

There was a day I was talking to my dad. He works in a highly competitive field that is super fast paced. I asked him how he handled the pressure. His answer was simple,"Take things one day at a time."

I've adopted that mentality. I take my days one at a time. On harder days, I have to take things one hour at a time. 

I also turn to those I love and trust. C is my breath of fresh air at the end of the day. I turn to my kids and ask S for an extra beso. I hold J tightly and put my cheek next to his. I call my mom or my dad. 

Lastly, I pray. Those days when I take it hour by hour? Yeah, there's a lot of prayer on those days, too. 

But, overall, I've been holding a lucky hand. I pray also that I don't take any of the good things in my life for granted.

-k